Author's Note:
I am an ordinary person with no specialized education in psychology, philosophy, or religious studies. What I write is merely the "notes of a thirsty one" on the path to understanding truth. This writing is the result of personal reflection, free study, and my lived experience; it carries no scientific authority or definitive religious reference. Its aim is to share a conceptual framework for self-knowledge and contemplation, not to present a proven theory. For action and decision-making, always consult specialized sources.
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Author: Mehdi Amirahmadi
Light Self-Knowledge
Abdul Mubin
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Abstract
Love, in this framework, is defined as the "driving force of existence" that can lead both to "desire" (captivity in the ego) and to "transcendence" (connection to Light). This article explains four stations of the "journey of love": "earthly love" (as a test of presence), "the goddess of desire" (as the ego's veil in the guise of love), "the lotus of transcendence" (as the flourishing of primordial nature from within desire), and "hatred and liberation" (as a signal of rupture and a gateway of passage). In this view, "hatred" is not an end point, but an "invitation" to "liberation"; and "liberation" is not "indifference," but "nameless presence" before "Light." The findings indicate that the journey of love, from "desire" to "transcendence," is the "journey of the ego" from the "commanding self" to the "tranquil self," and "hatred," in this path, acts as an "error signal" that invites the seeker to "review intention" and "return to the Origin."
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1. Earthly Love: A Test of Presence
Earthly love,
is neither sin nor defect,
but a "test."
A test for "presence":
Do you keep the "Witness" awake in love,
or drown in "desire"?
Earthly love,
is a mirror that shows the "false self."
In it, the "ego" places itself in the position of the "Core Self,"
and calls "desire" by the name of "love."
Earthly love,
if accompanied by the "Witness,"
becomes a "bridge."
And if accompanied by the "ego,"
becomes a "prison."
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2. The Goddess of Desire: The Ego's Veil in the Guise of Love
The goddess of desire,
is the "self-centered ego" that
appears in the guise of "love."
She says: "I am love,"
but in her essence, she is "possessiveness" and "attachment."
Signs of the goddess of desire:
- Possessiveness: "You are mine."
- Dependence: "I cannot live without you."
- Expectation: "I did this for you."
- Fear of loss: "If you are not here, I am nothing."
The goddess of desire,
kills the "Witness" and
seats the "ego" on the throne.
She turns "love" into "chains,"
and "freedom" into "fear."
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3. The Lotus of Transcendence: The Flourishing of Primordial Nature from Within Desire
The lotus of transcendence,
grows from within "desire."
It transforms the "self-centered ego"
into the "light-based primordial nature."
Signs of the lotus of transcendence:
- Liberation: "I have you, but you are not mine."
- Presence: "In this moment, I am with you, without clinging."
- Service: "My love is my service to you."
- Forgiveness: "If you leave, I still love you."
The lotus of transcendence,
awakens the "Witness" and
employs the "ego" in service.
It turns "love" into "Light,"
and "desire" into "Presence."
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4. Hatred and Liberation: A Signal of Rupture, a Gateway of Passage
Hatred,
in the superficial view, is the "enemy of love."
But in this framework,
"hatred" is a signal that says:
"You have strayed from the path of true love.
Return toward 'liberation.'"
Hatred,
if accompanied by the "Witness,"
becomes "liberation."
And if accompanied by the "ego,"
becomes "malice."
The difference between constructive hatred and destructive hatred:
- Destructive hatred: "I hate you and want to destroy you." (accompanied by the ego)
- Constructive hatred: "This relationship has distanced me from my 'Self.' I must free myself from it." (accompanied by the Witness)
Liberation,
is not "indifference,"
but "nameless presence."
Liberation means:
"I release myself from you,
to become closer to the 'Light.'"
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5. Conclusion: From Desire to Transcendence, from Hatred to Liberation
The journey of love, in this framework, is a "spiral":
First Stage: "Earthly Love" (A Test of Presence)
- Love as a "mirror" for recognizing the "false self" and the "true self."
Second Stage: "The Goddess of Desire" (The Veil of the Ego)
- Love trapped in "possessiveness," "dependence," and "expectation."
Third Stage: "The Lotus of Transcendence" (The Flourishing of Primordial Nature)
- Love, from within desire, transforms into "liberation," "presence," and "service."
Fourth Stage: "Hatred and Liberation" (A Signal of Rupture and a Gateway of Passage)
- Hatred as a "signal" for "reviewing intention" and "returning to the Origin."
In this journey, the "Witness" plays a key role:
- In "earthly love," the Witness separates the "ego" from "primordial nature."
- In "the goddess of desire," the Witness identifies "desire" as a "veil."
- In "the lotus of transcendence," the Witness sees "Light" within desire.
- In "hatred and liberation," the Witness turns "hatred" into an "invitation" and "liberation" into "presence."
Three Key Implications of This View:
1. Love is an "existential force," not a "fleeting feeling."
2. Desire is the "veil of love," not "love" itself.
3. Hatred is a "signal," not an "end."
Key Verse:
"And of His signs is that He created for you from yourselves mates that you may find tranquility in them; and He placed between you affection and mercy." (Quran 30:21)
True love leads to "tranquility" (presence) and "affection and mercy" (service and compassion); not to "desire" and "possessiveness."
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📚 Related Notes:
If you found this writing useful, I suggest you also read the following notes:
- Note 145: Love: The Driving Force of Spiritual Journey and Truth in Light Self-Knowledge
- Note 143: Good and Bad Intention: The Heart of Movement in the Republic of Being
- Note 141: Pretense and Hypocrisy: Two Masks of the Ego Against Presence
- Note 176: Death Awareness: How the Remembrance of Death Awakens the Witness
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Short Note:
This text has no connection to any group, organization, sect, or movement. It is solely the personal reflection of an Iranian Shia Muslim on a path he himself has walked. Everyone is free to read it or not, accept it or reject it.
