Today marke's the one week since the last time we had free internet in Iran. Like everyone else, a huge part of my life and career is dependent on world wide web. I am an English teacher and Marketer for God's sake. For the past week I tried my best not collapes in depression or severe anxiety. I just keept telling myself, There is nothing I can do other than going for a walk and keep faith in what is happening. Many people had died in the last week, including my oldest cousin in Tehran. She died with a metal bullet or as they like to call it, "Fast Flying object". Entering her body from back and finding it's way through a 50 year old women who had to die normaly many years later among her family.
None of us never immagined living a life like this 10 years ago. I was looking for a new job, because my teaching job can not cover a simple life anymore. I also have free time in the morning which I like to fill with a meaningful job. like a barista or learning how to veld which I believe it can be usefull in the future. I just want to work with my hands. I don't enjoy sitting behind a computer for the whole day and try to answer nonsense questions. I would love to build meaning and connection with people. I am just looking for new things to experience so I can feel better and not feel overwhelmed or disappointed all the time.
I am going to look for a job and find one that suits me. I like to work in a resturant or a repair shop where I can reapir something without feeling nervous. Working in a metal factory which is owned by my cousine's husband is my last choice since they are my family and relatives and I don't like to ask them for help, but I will call them if I couldn't find an other job.
I also called some English teaching institues, and I have to say they pay with penny. It is not logical to waste your time in English classes trying to make money. I need something real.
let's hope that the situation we are experiencing right now will come to end very soon. I am sorry for my not so perfect English. I just didn't felt like qwriting in Farsi. There is not much important stuff here. believe me, you didn't missed anything if you can't or don't want to read this. Just take care of yourself and your family. One day we will live like normal people in our own homeland, and that day is not far away.
Your friend, Ata.
