Do you feel it too?
like you are never enough for anything or anyone?
Do you doubt the path that you have chosen?
every moment of every f*cking day?
sometimes I ask myself what would happen if I didn't exist at all ...
and my mind digs any hole to find an answer ...
am I wasting a life that could have been for someone else?
could anyone live my life better than me?
is it always gonna be like this? so many questions and no answers?
I feel like I've been manipulated about a better future at every step of my life ... they said " it would get better when you go to a better school, your life will just get started when you get into the university and when you make your own money you can have much more fun and you'll understand the value of it ...".
I don't know maybe after I'm financially independent they will tell me to get married and start my own family ... it is how it works isn't it ...
it's like the path was written and I never got to make any decision of my own and when you can't change anything gradually you'll get stuck in your swamp ...
