I wanted to make you feel alright , I'm just so tired ..
I was alone all along my grief, my life was hell . You just came by and decided to be in my life in a blink of an eye ,well that's not fair . You weren't there when I needed you and now that I'm just moving through whatever the fuck this life is you showed up. You make feel sick, you make hate me even more than I already do. I want to tell you how hard it was for me to live without you , how it hurt whenever everyone else could see you but me . There is no point to tell you this now , I'm sure you still see me as who I was and can't tell the difference. You are who you are , you always do what you want never cared to ask me what I wanted . And I loved all along I always wanted you and I hate me for this . I hate myself for this desperate need of being loved. I hope you see at least once as who I really am. I can't change who you are i can just tolerate and move on . Anyway it hurts .
