I really want to write in English. It's an old dream, and I always fear of Thousands of unknowing things. Sometimes I say to my self that my vocabulary is the main problem and I don't know as much as enough words to describe my thoughts. Some days I just concern about the Grammar or the spelling. These things often make me as slow as a snail! I'm really worry about being wrong and being mocked by others and can't be aware about my writing mistakes. How should I order this sentences that I have in my mind? Which adjective should come first? How I can translate the image that is in my head? I try to don't think in Farsi, I try my best to ignore my faults, and just keep writing. But I figured out that if I just write for my self, and nobody read what I wrote, except ChatGPT, I never can be better. I was thinking about running a blog and just write English in, but like many other ideas I had before, I did nothing for it. Today I saw a girl in Instagram, who was writing her novel in English, as her second language, so I find out that I need a serious solution to put down this jealousy! If I just complain about things and never do anything about them, to solve the problem, I will be hunted by a strong angry ghost of my dreams, and I will be just a jealous person, not anything more. Thus I decided to put aside my Perfectionism and just start to write something, and the important part, PUBLISH it. After this I will push my self to try more, write more, and publish my texts. This was my writing!
