my dear friend who you are reading this, please don't!
I wrote this letter to clear my mind, and free my soul and I know who she has to read it won't, so...
It's not an informative post. if you don't like these kinds of notes, don't read it!
it's been a long day!
and it's been a long time that it's like this
you know, It's been like this ever since I saw you.
almost a year... wow! Time flies, they said, and yet I didn't buy it but now I believe it!
my sweet Elfie, the first time I got those feelings for you, I thought it was a simple crush and would disappear soon but it's been almost a year and yet ...
yet I'm feeling the pain in my heart.
and the gap you made in my heart, It's not gonna get filled easily
*sigh*
God damns me for falling for you.
my sweet Elfie, today I saw your eyes.
your eyes were like mine when I stare at that beauty spot on your cheek; Happy, glowing, wide, and very alive
but yours, weren't looking at me...
and what's more painful than this? your beloved's loving a douchebag F-Boy and probably would choose him over you and you can't do a damn thing about it?
*sigh*
my sweet Elfie, I wish at least I could tell you what I've been through all this time...
I wish I could tell what you made me feel and experience
I wish at least I could tell you how much I think about you. how many nights I've been awake, looking at your picture, dreaming about you, and how many days I woke up with your thought...
I wish I could...
I wish...
*sigh*
my sweet Elfie, today I saw happiness in your eyes.
so if that's what makes you happy, I have nothing else to say.
it doesn't even matter how much I struggled to get to you.
It's so god damn hard for me but if you're better off without me, I'll face it with a sad smile and go.
it's hard to see your beloved winds up with a douchebag but all I want is your happiness.
after all, if that's what you want, so be it...
I go and I hope...
where ever and with whoever you are... you're happy!
to my sweet Elfie
* Elfie:
a Goddess, Elf
The kind of person who is very shy, slightly insecure and is only her truest self around her best friends. She gets asked out a lot but turns everyone down even if she does like them back.
